Stay Open for the Message
Creative Confession from a Creative Sage/Crone
After I created my vision board for this year, I noticed the birds all the birds I glued down had their wings wide open. As I quickly made this awareness it was the first messaged I received for the year. Stay Open, not matter what, day and night, even during my shadow side moments.
Reposting, 2026 Vison board.
A few days ago I was working through inner and shadow side stuff and ended up in trying to understand longing and wanting. (a post back from this one) I’ve been working with that understanding with my own creative confessions. (Getting honest) I found that when I really work with the heart in the longing section of life I find out that what I have already is what I want to keep having in my life. By this I mean, my marriage through the messy bits and the beauty, my art studio space I’m working on decluttering/purging. My yard though quiet now with winter but I long for the season spring. I long for the times with family. This longing do come and I understand now I will take my luck as it come with them and delight in the now. And what I want comes from a inner child personality-the mind.
And when dealing with life on life’s terms there are moments where one over exceeds their wellbeing. So now looking into forgiving myself. I’m ready for my inner peace. Letting go of old resentments when the pattern to go back to them and re-feel the hurt is a bit of insanity. In the moment I don’t always see that, in the moment just get caught up in feelings like they were gold. I’m only hurting myself when I loose my inner peace.
I thought I learned this thing about past triggers, where they can grab you hold you hostage and lead you to personally injurie again and again. Perfect storm for losing ones sanity. Which I know this all to well. I want to blame it on the irritations going on my life but the honest truth is some amazing things have come by it…getting honest is a way to gently ground yourself I feel.
The time has come, keep moving forward as much as I can. Though in the Artists Way, circling back on different topics/drama drains in your life is a natural course at least till you get sick and tired of doing it again and again. The question is, “what does the pain, re-hurting do for me? Confession is it’s helps me grow spiritually in meaning and understanding. I don’t try to do this but working with in my life the inner life this is how I work it. I have to let go lovingly and once again take responsibility over my own life. Respond with ability.
The thoughts of imaging a space that I’m willing creating for new, authentic and lighthearted situation and people to enter my life is a good intention. This kind of forgiveness I’m giving myself simply signifies that I no longer what to carry the pain it has caused. Here’s the big Aha moment, “releasing myself from the prison of my own victimization.” I’m also understanding it’s lead by ego. I don’t want to sell myself short in this one beautiful life, so I choosing to ask my Greater Spirit for guidance.
I can’t undo my past, but I can live my life now, and open myself to everything that is currently worthy of child’s eye view with my best attention. Start with fresh eye, I can begin again anywhere in life if I seek the Grace of Life, Good Real and Centering Energy.
Here is what I read once, “ No one is powerful enough to damage or change me; my ability to forgive myself and others holds the key that opens the door to personal freedom.
I want to share a post I just read from
Gina Luker, The Magic of Creativity.
Reading her words and magic work inspires me to do mine. All this creative crone work of letting go of old past because who want to carry that suit case till the day you die? Pretty soon it’ will just lay open with nothing in it to carry around, that is a longing I have. (from my heart space as I hold my hand there.) And it all a process and I do love a good step by step process. I’m right where I need to be for this day in my life and grateful for it.